The Journey Continues

We sometimes find ourselves lost even if we are executing our plans within our goals. Our ability to lose ourselves after one traumatic life changing situation gives us more time to reevaluate what we really want in our lives versus what we used to believe that we need. 

I never thought that I will experience another heartbreak after so many years of being happy and contented. With all the other reasons for me breaking down, this is the worst that I can handle. I am never really good at handling heartbreaks. That probably is the reason why I tend to quit a relationship when I start to feel that something’s already wrong. 

My last relationship may have ups and downs but that may also be the most ideal of all. That again, may probably be the reason why I was hurt that much to the point of me breaking my habits and routines after she decided that it’s all over.

I lost myself. I felt betrayed. I was devastated.  Someday I wish to tell the world that this is just a love story, and that I have more happy stories than that.

I am not a fan of traveling solo. I also gave up backpacking years ago, and had lived a laid back life to balance the stress in the outside world. But now, that I need to reevaluate myself, I decided to fly solo, booked a pod as a regular backpacker and booked a single room in an airport hotel. 

Though the goal was to backpack solo, I didn’t really travel alone. As soon as my cousins and friends found out that I am flying over, I had numerous sleep over and meet up invites. Though there are several activities all though-out the day, the idea of going to bed alone and waking up alone in your solo bed, still imposed some episodes of depression.

It’s still a good thing that nature has a way of balancing things. Life has always been better with friends and family. They keep me whole. They keep me sane. They make me realise more how lucky I am to be blessed, and should be thankful for all the the good things that happened after our relationship ended.

I am writing this while on the plane on my way home. Details about my recent “almost backpacking solo” trip will be published after this entry.

This is obviously not a travel entry, but still decided to publish this here, as my way of telling the world that my journey continues and nobody can stop me from traveling and exploring my passion.

I am no longer lost. I already found and redeemed myself and I am more than ready to travel again.

Until my next trip.